i like you
so i will constantly
bring you down
to feel better
about myself.

landslide cover.

This is my favorite scarf, this is my favorite song to sing. 

the completely gut wrenching
sickening realization
that i am so jealous
so
fucking
jealous

could feel bad
if i did not
feel so good

could care for
you if it
were not you

could stop lying
if i did not
feel a sick
thrill chilling
my spine when
i look at
him every time
and i want
his hands on
mine like when
he dropped me
off the last night

im always in
your car at
the right moment
your never there
without heat
of the moment
without reason
in your jeans
your so dirty
so selfish
so sexy
so manly so
ugly so not
so empty
so deep
so shallow
go rot

could feel worse
if i cared less
if i thought
more of what
we are not
as i lay
a perfect facade
to mask what
i really mean
when i speak
as my eyes glow
but my lips angle
downward and
my face goes
red like the blood
that pumps through
me when i think
of you but i
dont let you know
ever as
i never let anyone know ever.

wallet

im not one

for dirty poetry

the lines just

dont come easy

when it comes

to me 

but the way 

your skin

felt in the 

backseat 

you got me 

pulled in and 

said sorry mom 

your a gentleman

and i laughed

some 

yes i did 

look up at your

face the beads of 

sweat forming on

your forehead as i

gripped your forearm

and tried to remember

the rules i stumbled while 

trying to practice to be 

the lie i pretended to be 

when it came to you

and i saw 

your eyes 

and that smile

and i cant

feel my face 

and i blame it

on the way 

you kiss passionately

and how you

dont care

about me 

but you hold that stare

as you leave your 

backseat

still naked and my

wallet slips

from grip

wallet slips

from mind 

and im in awe

of what i see

and im in awe

of what i have

the newly discovered

ability to be 

as i cheat 

because im dirty

and i fall

because im clumsy 

and i know

you feel something

in that heartbreakers

heart of yours 

that keeps me coming

and keeps you answering

when it comes to me

and you come for me 

in your own back seat 

i think i started something

i got what i wanted didnt i?

love me now
when im gone love me none. 

i hate you.

Hot In Herre Acoustic Cover

This is literally my favorite song to play.

      Also I dyed my hair annnnd I'm in love with it, so stare upon my head.

thats my hair

freestylin

this is what happens between 3 and 4 am when i dont have songs written but i wish i did so i derp on the spot

For Aliix

i actually have a full cover of this song... but some people cant wait ;]

..

two in one.

ill never stop wishing for you to come on home