had i known
how quickly you
would be gone,
i would not
have slept away
any of the hours
in the day
just so i could
spend more time
with you
had i known
i would have
faced deprivation hallucinations
and eventually death
from the hours
weeks
days on end
i would have given up sanity
had i known
you would be gone
so so quickly
i would have taken
back every word i said
i would have sent
every letter i never sent
given you every flower i picked
and made you mine
even for a short time
had i known

i have to hold myself back
from falling for you
fair skin
fair hair
bright eyes
its the tone of your voice i think
when it gets high up
and you squeal with excitement
the sheer happiness painted on your face
i want to be the reason
but i wont
i will sit back
and day dream
while you sing and you scream
and you surprise me with your everything