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You call when
I Have nothing at all
Left to give
When I'm spent 
From seeking love
Or some physical equivalent
In all the wrong places 
By anything but accident
I have a horrible habit
Or six
And I fall for friends
Like it's my business
I no longer care 
For matters of the heart
Just what happens between 
Closed lids and shut blinds 
Ill never own a single
Thing that I want for mine 
Just what happens between
Wrapped legs and 
crossed fingers
Don't let them hear 
You whisper
I can't bear to hurt again
So I'll back down from this event
At least until I know I can

1252

oh no its happening again
just want to pull you in
i dont know why every
so often i need you
i feel my feet point toward you
my body near you
stop
oh no i thought of it again
and you went and lead me in
i mean maybe i could
if you would
you wouldnt
stop
dont stop just come on
and we could still be friends
no lies, just love
ill play it again
what ever you want to listen
listen to you breathe
see the veins in your skin
youre never watching
or are you
do you notice
stop
oh no its happening again

Reservations

I'll reserve you
Until you're mine
Won't give my heart
Up until it's time
When I can finally
Give you everything
I want to
When I can tell you
How much I love you
I do
Or when I realize- 
If it happens first
That everything you
Said was for the benefit
Of some verse
For some lines the public will never hear you spit 
All I want is to be your girl
All you want is the whole world

137

You're lonely.
It came to me one night
when I was too
I never thought
that would ever be,
No, not you-
Not lonely
While you stir up
nothing at the bar
glance at the phone
wonder where they are
I stifle back a laugh
"You're lonely."
As it hits me
but it doesn't break my fantasy
You're still my dream
Even being so flawed
so human, which I know you are not-
as to be lonely

202

baby are you up at night 

thinking maybe wondering

"is she all alone or is he up 

behind her holding tight" 

or is it just something

you only think of when youre faded 

when youve had enough of complicated

situations, when your own town brings you down 

do you ever hear the perfect line

that makes you want to go back in time 

take the distance and put nothing between us

damn i think i think too much 

like when i send you photos

and i wonder if you smile 

if you sit back in your chair and laugh

bring it up to friends and brag

do you hold it for your own eyes 

keep it secret, feed me lines  

im simply sick of all i have to say 

but youre far for another day 

month, week, year

time means nothing when its passing here

time means nothing

when its passing

here 

oh well

Keep disregarding me
It turns me on
Please don't stop ignoring me
"You're doing it wrong,
If you want to be remembered
You have to leave before you've
Been around too long."
So I lost my wallet
It wasn't a satisfying goodbye
But you didn't let it at that
And now I've got nothing but time
Miss you sweetie
You'll never be mine
Get me out of here baby
Sick of city lights
I want oceans of sky
Where it's nothing but
Star shine reflecting
Landlocked blues
anything but I love yous

insomnia is a bitch

"Well I'll start by kissing your lips for a while"
You're still spinning
And I can tell by the way things
You want to say are blurred
"As you stare in my eyes"
And you're getting clearer
But the things I want to say
Are never nearer to leaving my mind
Hell, you have to know by now I'm
Always sleeping in a world
where you're mine
"Felt like I let them down"
As you confess something
Other than lust for almost
The first time, I remember
My eyes meeting yours
Darling, under the night sky
Replay seeing you
for the first, last, and every time
And I can't help but take it
All in, as my electra complex
Drives me, and your very touch
Electrifies me
"One day I can make your dreams come true"
And I want nothing more than to wake up next to you
But in honesty, reality is not that easy
We may never do anything we wanted to
Yet every time I'm almost happy
There you are
Reminding me there's still more to life
While I miss riding in the back seat of your car