Reservations

I'll reserve you
Until you're mine
Won't give my heart
Up until it's time
When I can finally
Give you everything
I want to
When I can tell you
How much I love you
I do
Or when I realize- 
If it happens first
That everything you
Said was for the benefit
Of some verse
For some lines the public will never hear you spit 
All I want is to be your girl
All you want is the whole world

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You're lonely.
It came to me one night
when I was too
I never thought
that would ever be,
No, not you-
Not lonely
While you stir up
nothing at the bar
glance at the phone
wonder where they are
I stifle back a laugh
"You're lonely."
As it hits me
but it doesn't break my fantasy
You're still my dream
Even being so flawed
so human, which I know you are not-
as to be lonely

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baby are you up at night 

thinking maybe wondering

"is she all alone or is he up 

behind her holding tight" 

or is it just something

you only think of when youre faded 

when youve had enough of complicated

situations, when your own town brings you down 

do you ever hear the perfect line

that makes you want to go back in time 

take the distance and put nothing between us

damn i think i think too much 

like when i send you photos

and i wonder if you smile 

if you sit back in your chair and laugh

bring it up to friends and brag

do you hold it for your own eyes 

keep it secret, feed me lines  

im simply sick of all i have to say 

but youre far for another day 

month, week, year

time means nothing when its passing here

time means nothing

when its passing

here 

oh well

Keep disregarding me
It turns me on
Please don't stop ignoring me
"You're doing it wrong,
If you want to be remembered
You have to leave before you've
Been around too long."
So I lost my wallet
It wasn't a satisfying goodbye
But you didn't let it at that
And now I've got nothing but time
Miss you sweetie
You'll never be mine
Get me out of here baby
Sick of city lights
I want oceans of sky
Where it's nothing but
Star shine reflecting
Landlocked blues
anything but I love yous

insomnia is a bitch

"Well I'll start by kissing your lips for a while"
You're still spinning
And I can tell by the way things
You want to say are blurred
"As you stare in my eyes"
And you're getting clearer
But the things I want to say
Are never nearer to leaving my mind
Hell, you have to know by now I'm
Always sleeping in a world
where you're mine
"Felt like I let them down"
As you confess something
Other than lust for almost
The first time, I remember
My eyes meeting yours
Darling, under the night sky
Replay seeing you
for the first, last, and every time
And I can't help but take it
All in, as my electra complex
Drives me, and your very touch
Electrifies me
"One day I can make your dreams come true"
And I want nothing more than to wake up next to you
But in honesty, reality is not that easy
We may never do anything we wanted to
Yet every time I'm almost happy
There you are
Reminding me there's still more to life
While I miss riding in the back seat of your car

its 3:24 am, i cannot shake you from my mind
no matter how hard i try
you are engrained there
and the tears well up in my eyes
like a million tries to get you home
like a million wishes that you would pick up the phone
i cant accept it
like a child who wont be told no
i simply cant let you go
i no longer know if its romantic
platonic, ironic- something
that you should be hurt by me
and in the end
i am hurt by you
"you never meant to"
but you did
oh god you did
sweet revenge is how they spin it
no good bye is how i pin it
and all i want to do is hop in my car
and drive to your house
and see what all the fuss is about

Infatuation like I havnt
Felt since grade school
The thought of my skin
On your skin in the damp
Dirty southern cool
You have me reckless
Hopeless, so giddy I'm floating
And when did you get so romantic
You have me checking my
Phone, frantic
I dont know what your getting at
Going so far for something like me
For a few fucks an a girl you'll barely see
were perfect for eachother
"move to me" you move me
I guess, yes I'd give up
Anything, everything
Promise and I'll leave
I'll promise to leave
You take the lead